I have always thought that talking to yourself is a sign of imminent madness, or at least a significant eccentricity. I am now forced to revisit this assumption – I have started talking to myself quite a lot recently, whilst I believe I am perfectly sane.
Sometimes, the sentences churn over quietly in my head, on other occasions I keep muttering throughout the day, e.g. while cooking or tidying up. My prime ‘chat time’ is at bed time – perhaps a bit of a ‘flash-back’ to childhood’s bedtime stories?
I have never talked to myself before.
I would either have a conversation with another person or remain silent. Talking to myself was not my thing, I would consider it completely pointless. What has changed? Simple – I started a blog.
Blogging is easier said than done. I wish I could just come up with an idea and produce a blog post 40 minutes later, but it does not seem to work like that. Not for me, anyway.
Since I started writing, I’ve been trying to pay quite a bit more attention to what and how I say. If I said something silly in a conversation, I could just hope that the other person did not hear or not remember my comment. However, once something has been posted in a blog, this is it. It’s there, as a lasting testament to my imperfect use of words.
Writing something down for public consumption is quite daunting. It’s so easy to get something wrong or to upset people unintentionally. I need to think things through carefully and it is much easier when I can have a conversation about it.
I could potentially bounce it off my family members, but the problem with that is that they may not like what I am planning to write. They may disagree with my take on the topic or simply find it uninteresting. All that would translate into negative feedback and I’d rather focus on the positive side of things.
Talking things through with myself really helps.
It helps me gain clarity on what I want to say. It helps me remember the intended title for my new post (I still haven’t bought that little notebook to keep all my ideas together)… It also serves as an ‘editing board’ for what I want to write and helps organise my thoughts.
So, if anyone spots met taking to myself, assume that I am simply working on my new blog post and there is no need to worry. You should only become concerned when you catch me arguing with myself. That would be highly eccentric to say the least.