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I Need A Holiday

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Yes, that’s right – I am in a desperate need of a holiday.

I am not necessarily talking about going somewhere sunny and warm (although that would be very nice);  in fact, I don’t actually need to go anywhere as such. I just need a break, from pretty much everything.

This year has been very hectic so far. I have sort of lost April, don’t even know where it has gone. It’s like Easter was yesterday and suddenly we are nearly in May… When did that happen? It feels as if the good old Earth started spinning quite a bit faster than usual. There are not enough hours in a day to do everything and unfortunately the things that need doing don’t want to shift; they just keep piling up instead.

When I get to the point of getting overtired, a lot of my daily, mundane activities run on autopilot. This usually works pretty well, but I’ve noticed a few malfunctions recently. For example, last weekend I was doing some ironing (a job I detest) and when I finished, I nearly put the iron away in the fridge. I realised the moment I opened the fridge door that it wasn’t quite a right thing to do and felt like a complete idiot.

A few days ago I went to Tesco to get some milk and bread and came back home with bags full of everything but milk.

This morning,  I spent good 20 minutes going round the house looking for my cup of tea which I misplaced somewhere, only to find it after lunch, hiding behind the screen of my laptop. Later on, I made another cup of tea, but with cold water – I guess I wasn’t decided whether I just wanted a drink of water or a cup of tea, and ended up with a combination of the two, which I had to pour down the sink.

I’m not even going to start about my endless trips up and down the stairs just to remind myself what it was that I was going to do at a particular moment.

I suppose I am under a fair bit of stress at the moment and go to sleep much later than I should. My youngest’s looming 11+ exams are probably the worst – trying to tutor my own child is extremely taxing, both mentally and emotionally. Add to this both boys’ music exams over the next few weeks, my eldest’s end-of-year school exams and the fact that my mother tripped on an uneven pavement, fell and hurt herself. Luckily, she ended up just with a few bruises, but didn’t break anything. A broken bone at her age would not be a very good idea…

Even weather is rubbish – we only had a few warm days and now I am back to my winter coat and gloves – could we not have a proper, warm spring for once?

My dream at the moment would be to take a break from all the daily chores. My husband works very long hours, often also at weekends, so all the unexciting things in life fall on my shoulders. If only I could, I  would happily stay at home and sleep, just to get away from work, housework, shopping, cooking, supervising homework and trying to keep peace between squabbling children…

If you feel the same, take heart – you are not the only one. I think all of us need a break and a little bit of time to ourselves sometimes.


14 thoughts on “I Need A Holiday

  1. I’ve often felt as you do. Usually during times of increased stress I find myself distracted and doing bizarre things. The only thing to do is get through it, if you can’t take time off. Time off would be lovely though. 🙂

    1. I’m glad it’s not just me, Cathy! I hope you can manage to take some time off when you feel like that, even if it’s just an hour a day for yourself. I know it’s often easier said than done… 🙂

  2. Sounds like it’s time for a nice picnic in the living room to break the monotony and lighten the stress. If only temporarily.

    1. Great idea, Marie. I’ve just made myself a nice cup of tea and found some biscuits….Everything else can wait for a bit 😉

  3. This sounds familiar to me Beata. Since I am 68 and I know you are a slip of a girl it cannot be old age. I think Rose is right, you have too much on your plate and need some help with the chores.

    When our boys got older Lesley made them do their own ironing as well as some other regular tasks. Start to count down the days until they go to University !! “Free at last” as somebody once said.

    1. Ha, ha, you made me laugh, Phil! I am still 21, of course 😉 I’ve started putting my foot down a bit with the chores; took the boys through a crash course on ‘how to use the washing machine’ and left it to them to hang out millions of their socks. They are still bemused that dishwasher emptying/filling cycle never seems to end, I always get the surprised ‘but I did it yesterday’ from them. Yes, it will be lovely when they can do their own ironing – I can’t wait. At the moment though, I would most likely end up having to buy new school shirts, or a new iron! All the 11+ exams preparations are really stressful, I will feel so much happier when it’s all over. Only a few more months to go… 🙂

  4. I love the warmth in your writing Beata and as always your posts are full of information and useful insights. 11 plus is such a challenge at such a young age. Sending best wishes.

  5. I know it’s difficult, but maybe start having the kids pick up what chores they can? It’s not easy but as a mom, sometimes you can’t be invincible.

    It’s time to say to the 9 year old eg. Mommy’s tired, can you load the dishwasher tonight? or to the 11 year old, Mommy’s tired, can you make dinner? (at 11 it’ll be something simple like spaghetti and pasta sauce or sandwiches but hey, it’s one less thing you have to do).

    Otherwise, try to take a few hours out – go get a manicure, a massage, or even a walk in the park. It may be cold – but the walk can be as much a mental vacation as an actual vacation. 🙂

    All the best!

    1. Thank you Rose, I really appreciate you writing. You are right – I need to get the boys to start helping out more. They do bits an pieces here and there, but not near enough, and I usually have to nag about it. Sometimes it just feels like less hassle to do stuff myself. I love your idea to give them a challenge to make dinner – and we all like pasta and sauce, so I’m going to give it a go! And I need a haircut, have been trying to remember to book it for last few weeks – I think I actually need to go and do it. Thank you for your support, Rose, it really means a lot. 🙂 Have a lovely weekend! Beata

  6. Oh, I was just thinking the same these past days. I need a break so badly. That’s why I filed my leaves. You should go on a break too before you get burned out.

    1. I think you are right, Lux, getting burnt out is not a nice thing to experience. I hope you break does you good! 🙂

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